I apologize for not being on lately.
But, well, things aren't going pretty well in real life.
I won't explain the whole situation because; let's face it, I'm sure you guys don't want your time wasted.
Anywho, to those of you who requested art from me:
I've finished a majority of you guys' drawing.
However, because I want to put a lot of effort into the requests, I am planning to draw them digitally. And coloring them as well.
The thing is, I haven't found the time to do so. Nor do I have the motivation as well.
So I ask of you to please remain patient for the time being.
I apologize if you are angered.
I'm very sorry.
Everyone has the hardships, I know.
Year after year there is always something major to bring me down in life.
But this year, has been further worse than the rest,
[If you guys have something better to do now, I suggest you to not read the rest of this journal. Do not even bother.]
I'm poor. I won't say why because those are other topics that aren't necessary to mention as of this time.
And when you are poor, you can't always afford everything.
So yeah. I'm losing the house I've grown up in.
But, I'm not going to be homeless.
The bad news is that since rent for most houses here are so expensive, I may have to move to a different city/district (is that how you say it?).
Which also includes switching schools.
And this affects me greater than you think.
I grew up always depending on others; thus making me naturally shy.
Well, other reasons as well but let's not get to into that.
Being shy equals making it especially harder to make friends.
Thus explaining as to how I became a loner in the past.
Don't get me wrong, I had a few close friends.
But people change.
And with change, friends that were once close become distant.
It's sad being alone. Always being alone.
I suffered being a loner for 4 years.
Long story short, I reunited with my childhood friend the next year.
But, something had to bring me down that year too.
I was constantly bullied that year.
This year, it stopped.
I thought everything would be normal.
And the only thing that was bad is the fact that my really close friends are moving to new schools next year.
And so I found out that I, too, am moving as well.
Quite sooner than expected, at that.
What really brings me down is that I'd have to say goodbye to everyone and make new friends.
But I can't make new friends.
I'm not capable of doing such a thing.
Which makes me scared that I'll just be all alone again.
But then again, I've always been alone.
If you've read until this far, congratulations I guess.
I'm sorry you had to read this too.
I just need something to vent these feelings I always hide inside me.
Hope you guys are having a better year than I am. Happy Late New Year, by the way.
Have a lucky day.